Having my son has changed my life in such a positive way. Im much more confident in myself knowing I can take care of my little guy. He’s healthy and happy, he depends on me 100 percent. I feel like ive grown and matured enough to love myself even though my body probably looked better before. Before I had Eli I wouldn’t wear dresses, skirts or heels now I do. I’m able to be more friendly to people and not be scared and closed off. Eli made me a better person and I’m thankful of him everyday!

This doesnt even look like my son.

Eli was throwing a tantrum on his playmat then started smacking his face into the mat. That’s the first time his every done that. Freaked us out.

Who is this kid??? Where is my baby?

I am so fucking sad that my photos got deleted. I only use my phone to take pictures. All the pictures of Eli, the visits to my dad’s, Easter, the videos! Ahh I can’t stop thinking about it.

Our bed thanks to Eli.

My baby has swollen tonsils! His doctor gave us antibiotics for him. I feel so bad I thought he had a fever because his teeth. My poor baby. He looks so sicky, his eyes hang low.

Today a girl asked if Eli was my little brother. It’s the first time that’s happened. I’m surprised it took this long.

First time eating a blackberry, he loved it.